The sense of security within a community helps with the process of success. I just recently moved to Hayward from Union City and I didn’t really have good memories of Union City. So moving to Hayward is like a fresh little mini start over. The fact that I live less than five minutes from Chabot giv s me comfort to know if I ever ran into car problems, it wouldn’t be so difficult for me to get there. In the area that I live it’s such a family community and that eases my mind when my oldest son walks our dog around the neighborhood. From the first day we moved in, there were kids running around and many people walking their dogs. It’s also diverse in every way. I would have never thought I would feel this comfortable here. Everything is convenient and that’s what one of my “must haves”. When I lived in Union City, I was right across from Union Landing, those who don’t know where that is, it feels like living across from a center with it all. You name it; movie theater, Walmart, grocery stores, restaurants, clothing stores, a bakery, cell phone providers, banks, and more! Just a hop, skip, jump away. I’m not as spoiled here but pretty close. Diversity is another important thing for me to have because it helps open my mind. Too much of one culture, I feel claustrophobic. My family now is the main reason other than myself that is helping me succeed. They help me by providing me with childcare for my youngest son who is almost three years old. That alone is the most of where my support goes. A growing child needs a lot of attention and most of the time I am not able to provide that with my work load. Convenience to parent’s house and school is a big positive. Financial aid is another huge contribution because I wouldn’t be able to afford everything while parenting and going to school and work. The instructors that I have made relationships with who made a huge impact on me, I can feel comfortable knowing I can come to them if I ever have a question or need help. I’ve experienced
a lot of life for me to know that school is something that I need to do in order for me to feel good about myself and to help guide me to where I want to be. I would feel more secure with a degree and experience. I never felt I “successfully” went far enough for me to feel like I succeeded on my own terms. Because of that all my negative experiences are what push me to success.
Things that prevent me from success now are more personal issues that I have within myself and a constant battle, the major one I have mentioned previously. It gets hard at times for me to realize that I am a full time student who is not working. This is the first time in fifteen years I have no income and don’t know how to deal with it at times. I’m used to working that now in school I can’t buy the “luxuries” like I did before and feel bad when I don’t get things my kids want. I also have a history of migraines which gets in the way of my daily life. I don’t know what the cause is but is really bad when I do get them can last for weeks if not treated correctly immediately. When it does get bad the room spins, I get nauseated, sensitive to light, sound, smell, and taste. Another challenge is my condition that I have, I have to keep it in check by taking medication every day, see a therapist weekly, psychiatrist monthly, and make sure I have a daily routine or I can fall into a relapse. It affects not just me but everyone and everything around me.
If it wasn’t for these issues, I would have nothing to push me to move forward; nothing to make me passionate of what I am at this moment. The choices that I’ve made lead me to this point and for that I am grateful. I don’t think that I would have the same passion I have now if I attended college at the time I was supposed to. I believe this is the path I’m supposed to take, even if it is later than what is “expected” of society. It’s the choices that I have made, make, the way I learn from it, and view life is how I will succeed or fail. Every time I catch myself in a tough situation and feel like I can’t do it, I think of the advice that one of my professors said to me: I am the one that creates road blocks for myself, not anyone else.
I am Legend
a lot of life for me to know that school is something that I need to do in order for me to feel good about myself and to help guide me to where I want to be. I would feel more secure with a degree and experience. I never felt I “successfully” went far enough for me to feel like I succeeded on my own terms. Because of that all my negative experiences are what push me to success.
Things that prevent me from success now are more personal issues that I have within myself and a constant battle, the major one I have mentioned previously. It gets hard at times for me to realize that I am a full time student who is not working. This is the first time in fifteen years I have no income and don’t know how to deal with it at times. I’m used to working that now in school I can’t buy the “luxuries” like I did before and feel bad when I don’t get things my kids want. I also have a history of migraines which gets in the way of my daily life. I don’t know what the cause is but is really bad when I do get them can last for weeks if not treated correctly immediately. When it does get bad the room spins, I get nauseated, sensitive to light, sound, smell, and taste. Another challenge is my condition that I have, I have to keep it in check by taking medication every day, see a therapist weekly, psychiatrist monthly, and make sure I have a daily routine or I can fall into a relapse. It affects not just me but everyone and everything around me.
If it wasn’t for these issues, I would have nothing to push me to move forward; nothing to make me passionate of what I am at this moment. The choices that I’ve made lead me to this point and for that I am grateful. I don’t think that I would have the same passion I have now if I attended college at the time I was supposed to. I believe this is the path I’m supposed to take, even if it is later than what is “expected” of society. It’s the choices that I have made, make, the way I learn from it, and view life is how I will succeed or fail. Every time I catch myself in a tough situation and feel like I can’t do it, I think of the advice that one of my professors said to me: I am the one that creates road blocks for myself, not anyone else.
I am Legend
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